I don noe how im feeling inside me...
I need someone to guide me.
I need someone to lend me his/her shoulder..
I need someone to tell me assuring words..
i need to know my existence...
I neeed.. NEED!!!

haiz.. I feel like im going to break apart anytime..
I don wanna think.. Yet, i cant help thinking..
I realli miss you so so much...
Yet, i cant bring myself to msg u or talk to u..
I jus wanna keeep things while its stil nice?? lol..

2months.. It isnt considered veh short.. Yet, its not long..
But, there are stil memories..
Thank you for the memories.. I'll kept and treasure them with all my life..
Thank you for the memories.. I know thy mean nth to you..
Thank you for the memories.. I wanna let go of them..

Why must this happen?.
I'll rather we didnt became close and jus continue meeting once a yr??
I'll rather hold on to the past memories..
I'll rather lie to myself that u care..

But, i know. Everything happens for a reason..
one of it might be, to let me know e diff between childhood and present..
to let me understand, things can never be the same forever..
to let me know, nth lasts in life..
but im not convinced..
I guess i wil noe the reason one day..
hahha..

Tears have dried up..
I don wanna cry anymore..
i don wanna be dehydrated!! =)

But when i am alone,
you'll jus pop into my mind..
everyth rlei happened too fast ler..
I didnt expect us to become close..
I didnt expect you to tell me those nice words..
I didnt expect you to treat me so well..
and i didnt expecct you to CHANGE so fast..

I still cant accept tat its over..
I still cant believe we were once grew closer..
I need TIME..

Time will heal e wounds.
time will NOT take away e memories..
Time will NOT make me care lesser..
Time will NOT make my love for u to turn lesser..

The next time we become close agn = 5-6yrs ltr?? i dont know..

After all u've done..
After all e pain..
i.still.love.you.

becuz.. no matter wat, u're stil my cousin..haha..